Of pride and principles.

I'm not merely feigning indifference. It's just that you make me not want to bother and it's hard to turn back once I feel that way. Especially after I've known better. Emotions are a waste of my energy at this point. I have priorities to live up to and this shall not be made one of em.

I realize that it's my prerogative to say whatever I want here. But words are like double edged swords. Mine has the tendency to act as razor blades slicing through raw flesh when I want em to be. Thus I shall refrain. I know better than to underestimate the power of words. For I have no time nor the will to deal with the consequences.

I am and always will be a living contradiction. It's my being and over time I've learnt not to fight it anymore. I have my reasons for my contradictions. I used to think that there was only a black or white choice for most matters, but not anymore. Grey matter does exist and exist it does extensively. But again this does not mean that I can accept the in betweens for certain issues.

On the matter of acceptance, I can't accept how you have to accept me. I dont need this form of acceptance from you when I know I can gain embracement elsewhere.

Change? How can change occur when it either is or isn't. It's not something you can change. Neither do i want to persuade or convince you to change as any attempts on my part would be futile to begin with. If by a stroke of luck I do succeed, i just know this success will not bring an once of satisfaction.

Therefore, it is pointless.